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"I love taking drives in the rain, I love making someone laugh, I love getting texts about nothing, the words I love the most are “here, be there soon, lets do something, I wanna drink” I love being someone’s ride or die."

NOFX, Bad Religion, Less Than Jake, Sublime, Rancid, Anti Flag, Jimmy Eat World, Goldfinger, MXPX, Sum 41, Blink-182, Green Day, The Offspring..

OBITUARY.

He wasn’t good at much, didn’t really accomplish anything, and he wasn’t very nice to people he didn’t know. But the one think he did well was love. He loved everyone one of his friends and family members, so much that he didn’t even know how to show it.
One day in class we had to describe our selves in one word, and he chose the word “love”. He said he chose this word because he felt love for everything and everyone, he said he would be so in love with the littlest thing that he would feel panicked and not know what to do with it all.
A disease came over him. It took the love away from him. Even though he didn’t love himself anymore, he still felt love for everyone else. We forgave him for everything he did to his loved ones, and he gave us what we all wanted in return, love for himself.
I think that’s why this happened, I believe he had so much feeling in his heart that he didn’t know what to do with it, so overwhelmed with the feelings he possessed he was caved in by them.

I love this. It reminds me of that letter Kurt Cobain wrote about his daughter-- about how she loves everything and everyone and sees the best in everything, which reminded him of himself and which frightened him.

And that scares me. Because I love things immensely, too. I sincerely look for the good in people and situations and it's a natural habit I have. It sounds pompous and I wish it didn't. It's a frustration of mine because although this enables me to get along with people well and to embrace others with friendliness, I often find myself insecure of the magnitude of affection I know I'm capable of giving. Today it's weird and suspicious to act uber friendly and charismatic. It's not uncommon that I have to explain that I'm not being sarcastic when I'm completely sincerely happy for someone or whatever the matter is alike. This is the way that I am. And because I'm so used to it, and I understand where I'm coming from, and I feel like I have a level head, sometimes it's hard for me to understand that not everyone else feels that way, too. And I don't know if people are pretending not to care and are keeping this front for whatever reason, or what. And what if people just know that it's the societal norm to not demonstrate such affection or else it's weird and freaky and people will take advantage of you or something. And I don't want anyone to think I'm obsessed with them. I can completely see how it could come off like that, but the way that I appreciate you, as much as it might seem, is probably no more than I appreciate the next person. But I hate to be dishonest and hide how I feel. I hate to have to hold back. It's unnatural and awkward and so I second guess everything. It's stressful. And I don't think people in the real world are like me. I'm sure there are a few people, of course, more than a few, but I don't want to change who I am... I think that I have to be more careful; people are unscrupulous and in their world, will my tendency to love be my demise? 

fuck being honest

I do wish joy and I were compatible. He's a really cool kid. Sigh...

I was talking about how I take other peoples' points and opinions into consideration and am open to changing my mind about things and joey said that that was probably my best quality. that was really nice. he's so nice to me a lot of the time.. i appreciate it.